what the..

it's almost a month. and the stress has gotten to people. hidah got sick due to stress.. pity her. dun wan see her sick~ zac's also feeling the stress. Everyone is stressed. DMD(G)'s not takin it easy. Assignments come and go. Grades up and down. we have to learn to deal with it. ill soon breakdown if i don't talk to someone. so.. i've booked an appointment with zf. lol. i just made him sounnd that big. haha. he deserves rhe credit anyways.

sometimes i feel that being in sec sch is so much btr. i do miss sec sch but am more excited being in poly. i used to be able to handle the stress. i mean cmon. npcc, student council, amaths, SCHOOL~ hais. but these stress.. we shared it among cca-mate, exco members and classmates.

right now.. i feel unappreciated. maybe they are showing it in a different way? i dont know. my intuition tells me they dun appreciate it. some do. kudos to them. im ic right now. pple keep telling me.. get urself an aic. easy for u all to say~ i wanna get a guy as aic so that if thr was any heavy jobs they would be able to handle it. but i see the guys are still playful. how am i going to pick an aic then?! guess im going to handle this by myself.

i wear a fake mask. hiding my stress. see me as a happy go lucky person but deep inside, im hurting. no one udnerstands.

no one cares if i faint. no one cares if i fall. no one cares if i fall sick. no one cares even if i die.